Works Cited, Middle C

During the same week that Professor Joseph Skizzen was preparing his final lectures on Arnold Schoenberg’s Moses und Aaron, the newspapers were carrying reports concerning a celebrated Israeli rabbi who had, at last, solved the greatest theological question presented to the faithful by the Holocaust—namely, why? and six million times why? why? why? … why?

There will be no Judgment Day until we undertake to celebrate it. There was a why for Jews, of course: what had their people done to breach the Covenant so utterly and so reprehensively as to deserve annihilation? There was also a why to trouble Christians unless they could forget that German Catholics and German Lutherans had murdered all those German Jews; unless they could somehow reconcile God’s bloodlust with their own thirst by viewing the Almighty’s malevolence as carte blanche to give heretics and Christ killers what they surely deserved—a punishment long in coming and therefore most acceptable. There should be a similar why put to the followers of Islam about Allah, the One and Only God, because to single out Jews to exterminate, as he obviously had, particularly Polish and German ones among countless equally deserving Spanish, Russian, or American specimens, not to mention oodles of additional infidels of all sorts, is … well … odd … Was Allah merely miming the Christian God Almighty, already an epic anti-Semite? The consequences were especially unexpected because the remnants wound up unwanted on the doorstep of the Palestinians—not, one would think, a result in Allah’s plans. No one has seemed similarly concerned that Joseph Stalin murdered many more millions than Adolf Hitler (Professor Skizzen had ample documentation stuck to flypaper in the south dormers). He had finally decided that the reason for this (apart from left-wing reluctance and unremitting Jewish propaganda) was the absence of an organized state campaign against a specific racial target. In any case, what were all these deities—G-d, Jehovah, and Allah—allegedly up to while their minions were slaying even one soul not to say massacring so many? because they were all responsible, weren’t they (those Gods, that is, that existed)? since their power and their wisdom were such decided particularities of their nature like our height and brain size; they were the culprits, surely, weren’t they? these Notables of the Sky? if not for turning on the gas directly, at least for closing their ears to the hiss, turning their backs to the passing trains, washing their hands lest they be stained, taking a snooze through repeated beatings … yes, every one of those Gods … silent bystanders to innumerable shooting parties held till the bodies of the dead lay in heaps like potatoes, and all that human consciousness, all that awareness—in each victim the very candle of the Lord, it was always said, the very Light asked for at creation—was snuffed … ah yes … snuffed … snuffed … —so that’s what the smoke was.

But Professor Skizzen had noticed that God was always excused. Any and every God. For any and every thing. A tornado might trash a trailer park and the poor wretches who survived would thank him for sparing them, as well as preserving a children’s plate and one photo of the family grinning at the Falls as if they’d pushed the water over by themselves.

Perhaps the Gods alternated fucking off. “I won’t interfere with the destruction of the temple, if you won’t prevent the crucifixion of the Savior.” The pagans, the Christians, and the Muslims had taken turns burning the Library of Alexandria, but it was a moment of rare cooperation. Most of the time the celestial bodies were at one another’s figurative throats. The thought of burning drove Joseph to his attic where there was nothing but paper, sticky strings of clippings, rows of books, piles of magazines, stacks of newsprint, rolls of placards and posters, so he was always frightened by any word that implied ignition. The fact that burning had occurred to him was significant. Set those mountains of painful testimony ablaze, shred the evidence, erase the stories: of the young woman who was raped by her judges in punishment for the adultery of her brother, for instance. Out of what dark corner of the human mind …? or is it all dark, even in the light? or do our murderous desires lie hidden in the closet of the entry? under the runner unrolled down the hall? or disguised as that spot under the dining table where the rug is stained? By whom are we ruled if not by our nature? Remove all signs of those murderers who now make movies of themselves going through their grisly motions; and there will remain the badgering of sweet maids by their horny masters or the drowning of babies in their baths. It is impossible to conceal all the evidence. Yet how easily we forget who we really are. Because it should give us the creeps.

Gass, William H.. Middle C (Vintage International) (p. 208–10). Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group. Kindle Edition.

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When you’re young, time is a puzzle, like interlocking nails. You wonder what you ought to be doing or what the future holds or how things that don’t seem to have worked out will work out; and in such a mood, even when you are focused on the future because you are yet to get laid, to bloom, to beget, to find your way, to win a tournament, you nevertheless don’t detail far-off somedays in your head; you don’t feel your future as you feel a thigh … because the present is too intense, too sunny, brief as a sneeze, too higgledy-piggledy, too complete, too total a drag already, whereas there is simply so much future, the future is flat as the sea three miles from your eye while the beach you are sitting on is aboil with sunshine and nakedness. The future is constantly killing off the present by becoming it. The future is too—thank God—vague to deal with. The future may not arrive. Yet that is all you value, all you hope for: fine future things; so you think, I’m not here at present; I’m just a movie made of slow-motion dreams; haven’t I always been, then and now? wondering about when: when the dust will settle and the sky clear, when I will hear cheers and I’m handed my trophy.

Gass, William H.. Middle C (Vintage International) (p. 130). Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group. Kindle Edition.

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 But there is one sort of heresy belonging to this class of which both the Catholic and the Protestant Churches have always shown a quite peculiar terror. It is that which consists in taking literally the very frequent allusions in the Scriptures to the wickedness and consequent damnation of the rich and the blessedness of the poor. This had been the crime of the Circumcellians, a militant sect of the fourth century which sprang up on the African latifundia under much the same circumstances as the Spanish Anarchists, and it was also the crime of the Waldenses and of the Anabaptists. What the authorities could not forgive in these sects was the emphasis they laid on the social teaching of the Gospels. And it will be remembered with what almost insane fury Luther urged the destruction by fire and sword of those peasants who were compromising him by taking his teaching on Christian freedom in a literal sense.

The reason for this violence is obvious. The Bible, and especially the New Testament, contains enough dynamite to blow up all the existing social systems in Europe, only by force of habit and through the power of beautiful and rhythmical words we have ceased to notice it. An intelligent Chinaman has been more observant. Sun Yat Sen, when he visited Europe, was amazed that a religion which persistently extolled the poor and threatened and condemned the rich should be practised and maintained chiefly by the richest, most selfish and most respectable classes. The political skill and duplicity required for such a feat seemed to him to go far beyond anything that simple Orientals could run to. The danger has therefore always existed that any weakening in the influence of the Church, any desertion of the interests of the poor by the priesthood, would lead to a greater emphasis being placed upon the social principles of equality, voluntary poverty and brotherly love that, along with many other things, lie at the root of Christianity.

Brenan, Gerald. The Spanish Labyrinth (Canto Classics) (pp. 307-309). Cambridge University Press. Kindle Edition.

Works Cited, A Prayer for Owen Meany, John Irving

 Owen used to say that the most disturbing thing about the antiwar movement—against the Vietnam War—was that he suspected self-interest motivated many of the protesters; he thought that if the issue of many of the protesters being drafted was removed from the issue of the war, there would be very little protest at all.

Look at the United States today. Are they drafting young Americans to fight in Nicaragua? No; not yet. Are masses of young Americans outraged at the Reagan administration’s shoddy and deceitful behavior? Ho hum; not hardly.

I know what Owen Meany would say about that; I know what he did say—and it still applies.

“THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN GET AMERICANS TO NOTICE ANYTHING IS TO TAX THEM OR DRAFT THEM OR KILL THEM,” Owen said. He said that once—when Hester proposed abolishing the draft. “IF YOU ABOLISH THE DRAFT,” said Owen Meany, “MOST AMERICANS WILL SIMPLY STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT WE’RE DOING IN OTHER PARTS OF THE WORLD.”

- Irving

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Remember that? Remember then?

I remember what Owen said about "Project 100,000," too--remember that? That was a draft program outlined by the secretary of defense, Robert McNamara, in 1966. Of the first 240,000 taken into the military between 1966 and 1968, 40 percent read below sixth-grade level, 41 percent were black, 75 percent came from low-income families, 80 percent had dropped out of high school. "The poor of America have not had the opportunity to earn their fair share of this nation's abundance," Secretary McNamara said, "but they can be given an opportunity to serve in their country's defense."

That made Owen Meany hopping mad.

"DOES HE THINK HE'S DOING 'THE POOR OF AMERICA' SOME FAVOR?" Owen cried. "WHAT HE'S SAYING IS, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE WHITE--OR A GOOD READER--TO DIE!"

-Irving

Joyce Carol Oates is Silly

 Joyce Carol Oates:

"they" will not become a part of general usage, not for political reasons but because there would be no pronoun to distinguish between a singular subject ("they") & a plural subject ("they"). language seeks to communicate w/ clarity, not to obfuscate; that is its purpose.

https://twitter.com/joycecaroloates/status/1445581438175223816

It’s remarkable how blissfully unaware people can be of their own ignorance. So let’s count the ways this is wrong:

1. Fun fact, the pronoun “you” is singular and plural, and has been for centuries, and English seems to still function.

2. Singular “they” has existed longer than any one of us, included Ms. Oates. Again, English still seems to function.

3. If we really do need a plural “they,” then it’s perfectly permissible to just coin one. “They all” comes to mind.

4. With thirty seconds of Googling, you can verify for yourself that there are plenty of languages that mark plurality only optionally, or not at all. These languages all appear to function. Not surprising that Ms. Oates didn’t know this, but it is surprising she didn’t bother looking it up before making a pronouncement.

5. There are countless ways that English is ambiguous, and it still functions. We do not distinguish between inclusive and exclusive first person plural pronouns, unlike, say, Hawaiian. We do not mark whether we witnessed something directly or only heard of it from others as part of our verb tenses, unlike, say, Turkish. We do not distinguish, typically, between groups of two and larger groups like, say, Slovenian. And so on.

6. Finally, the purpose of language is not to communicate with clarity. It can be used in that way, but it can be used in just the opposite. Many a politician, or lawyer, for example, uses language to obfuscate. You can object to them doing so, but you can't deny that they're using language.

Poem After Reading the Long Loneliness

The Long Loneliness is the autobiography of Dorothy Day, published in 1952 by Harper & Brothers. In the book, Day chronicles her involvement in socialist groups along with her eventual conversion to Catholicism in 1927, and the beginning of her newspaper the Catholic Worker in 1933.

- Wikipedia

Poem after reading The Long Loneliness

I.

I read your book, Dorothy, 

Looking for answers you didn’t have

Nor claimed to have

But when you contemplated the mystery

Of the seeds and your daughter’s crown

You saw Rome and lovely pomp

Decode what was good

And what endured

Through the nights of the race

As we muddled the classifications that bound us,

Denied the chromosomal match,

Saw no miracle in the fact

That a lemur manufactures ascorbate

Whereas you, and you, and you, 

And Andaman savages 

And the Davos jet set

All have carried a bit of wrecked code

That once meant a necessary amine

And now means only that we need each other

Much more than we need anything.

We, Toba’s orphans,

Who once huddled in the dark, 

Our dank fear redolent

Amid the tang of gopherwood.

I think we agree,

Dorothy.

II.

I read your book, Dorothy,

Because you’re a better person

Than I’ll ever be

Or ever want to be, I suppose, 

Because I’ve not these thirty-nine years

Ever learned to domesticate

The disgust

That rides through me

When the beggars near.

Because I watched a war unfold

In dull contemplation

And kept a languid opinion

That it might be a bad idea

Buried in notes on my desk.

Maybe I supposed,

Socratically, 

Dorothy, 

You could teach me something I know,

Weave courage from this

Mess of tissue and lymph

And trim and tack

Until some wind 

Impregnated the sails.

III.

In your book, Dorothy, 

You found God

In joy

And the pico-unknowns

That underlay your cosmos and apple trees, 

And I, 

Naïve, 

Could tell you that a web search

Is all that separates us now

From the secrets of the yearning seed

And the neurotransmitters

That fire our contentment.

But let’s be frank, Dorothy,

(I will not lie to you

Because I can’t keep track of my lies):

I will confess the arcana of dark matter

And tick down Hilbert’s list of the unsolved.

I will tell you a tale of fractal realities,

Of a frond of futures that they tell me

Come endlessly from the quantum breakers.

I will even grant that whether the Turing box halts

The Nazarene solved halfway to Cana.

And we cannot.

IV.

Still, Dorothy Day, 

As history closes its damascene folds

Over your testament,

As the unknown changes its shape with its magnitude intact

(I want to be fair, Sister,

I want the accounting honest)

You refuse to believe

That none of this leads to the stoup.

That the crucifix is only

The first attempt 

At something we still strive

To perfect, ever faithful,

In strategic hamlets

And hospitals perched

In the far away myth of Al-Anbar.

(Of course I came for your accusation, too.

I came into the purgatory of these yellowing pages

For embers that might brand

With something life has so far spared.)

Please, Dorothy.

On the beach of Staten Island, 

Let’s gather driftwood for the evening fire.

I will tell you how we’ve economized

The Gnadenhuttens of yesteryear

By ensouling drones and whetting the

Anthropocene scythe

And you will respond with Dostoyevsky

And the rosary.

I’ll venture that the pump was primed

With the delta’s firstborn blood

And you will tell me of beatitudes

And John of the Cruz.

I will proffer martyrs of Hiroshima

You, a sobornost,

And we will both agree only

That the water and blood

Have sprung rich from Golgotha

These two millennia.

V.

Dorothy, 

Will it seem ironical

Or perhaps pat

That I found a sacrament

In an old mp3

Of you recounting the annals of anarchism,

Of communism prior to the Stalinite kiss,

And as your voice fought through fifty years

Of static—

(So much entropy, 

We lift our heads above only once)—

I did think:

Here’s a wonder

(If wonders can teem, as they do in an HTML world,

And still signify).

My phone a brief tabernacle

For your will.

And I stopped and I considered this.

That’ll preach.

VI.

Maybe, Dorothy, 

When we are both shades,

When you’ve tired of Tolstoy’s eccentricities, 

And Madam Krupskaya is busy educating the lumpen-Cherubim,

When we both drift between the darkling angles

In the lattice of the axioms

That man throws up against the sky

To pin moons on filaments galactic, 

You’ll wait with me

Through ten to the power of thirty-four

Intent to see if the proton cracks

And what radicle creeps forth.

You’ll hold me 

As the wavefunction falls around us

And our possibilities entwine—

Those worlds where you cowered 

And those where my heart bled enough bravery

To stand at your shoulder when the bludgeons fell.

(How thick does my disgrace flood these forking corridors?)

Only don’t save me from the talion, Dorothy.

Let’s tell ghost stories of orgasms, 

And holocausts,

Of serotonin and seraphim.

Let’s sort all this ash,

And make sense of it as we can, 

With a qibla for you, 

With a qibla for me.

VII.

Does it matter, Dorothy?

For there’s only the one lesson,

Surely.

We can do better, and we do not.

And yet, when we’ve been cracked open, 

Like ruddy lobster shells,

And our hearts wriggle on the scale, 

And Ammit drools, 

We will be oh so zealous in our defense:

We did our best!, we shall say. 

They held the bullhorns, 

They wrote history,

And we believed them.

And they said: 

Help them not!

For they are perverts and they are already damned!

They are greedy. They are lazy.

They are against the revolution.

They are for the revolution.

They spy, they spawn, they steal, they stink.

They are disloyal and they are armed

(And they are having this very conversation).

We were so very scared, you see.

Miserere nobis.

Nescivimus nos.

We didn’t know better.

Does it matter, Dorothy?

Just who gives the verdict?

Which gouty judge clambers up the dais,

And clears his throat,

Saying,

Goddamn you fucking apes.

How many mujaddids and mahatmas, 

How many avatars and Avalokitesvaras

And siddhas and scientists and saints

Do I have to wind up and set forth

To get you to stop torturing each other?

I have given you brains that can count infinities, 

Minds that can unfix time.

I have watched you poke stars, 

Levitate steel, 

Map bereshith

In the shifting sands of the shifting void, 

And you claim ignorance

And plead for forgiveness.

You love me? What need I of love?

I am clad with scales thick beyond all measuring,

My carapace infinite, my blood neutronium.

My tears so heavy

They debase elliptical purities.

I pick quasars from my hair.

How shall you injure me?

And then, what can I forgive?

And what can I send?

To clear the clear,

To make the obvious more so?

Another novel? Another opera?

One more documentary?

A new, subtle exegesis of Samaritans

And figs?

Or shall I waterboard you in the gutter?

Incarnate you as tapeworms?

Flense the delusion,

De-rationalize,

Commune with you once again

The shriveled horror:

To be poor

To be powerless

To be persecuted

To be condemned to picking

The cluster bombs from the cyclopean teeth 

Lining the Plain of Jars.

You have made me state it so often

That it turns to moist cliché in my mouth.

But once more, for the stenographer:

Love each other.

Be kind to each other.

Before the wind dies.

Most nights, I cannot sleep for the ticking of the argon clock.

It has been one point eight million years

Since you told your first story, 

And curled your toes in the Olduvai muck.

Time enough to know better.

VIII.

Don’t misunderstand me, Dorothy.

I damn and am damned.

I will wait in harrowing hell

Until the Hawking radiation

Releases every last soul.

After we forget why we suffer.

After we forget how.

Only then will I tunnel free,

More eschar than man,

And watch the nebulae 

As they resolutely refuse to coalesce.

IX.

In the closing static, 

The universe, physicists augur:

A garden of singularities, 

Black holes murmuring secrets.

We know now—did you?—of the mausolea

That anchor galaxies, 

But even they conclude their testimonies

And leave the manifold virgin as once.

And Dorothy, 

I have to say, 

I still think those seeds managed it alone.

On the shores of Tottenville,

Mastodons still wallow.

Lenape yet abound.

We come again to gather driftwood, 

For the Sabbath Atash.

I don’t know if there’s time or humanity enough,

For these seeds to dehisce

And speak a coy green wonder in twilight.

But better we than I,

To pray in this starless hall.

Hold my hand, Dorothy, 

For I am amazed.

Pad-footed comes the night.

Adulthood Fairy

The man turned at the gang of teenagers, and drew back his lips to reveal sharp eel teeth.

“Yo man, you sell drugs or what?” they said.

“I’m actually the adulthood fairy,” he said. “I go around granting adulthood to the children of the world.” Leathery wings extended and trembled in the wind ripping through the alley.

“Sick, dude.”

“I also sell drugs.”

“Sick, dude.”

“So, are you all ready to become adults?”

“I mean, we were just after some molly, but, yeah, what the fuck.”

“I have to warn you, there are pros and cons to being an adult.”

“Like what?”

“Like, you’ve got to work a job, and some of you get hemorrhoids. And you, you lose two fingers at a Guatemalan zoo.”

“Damn.”

“And that’s not even the worst part of the trip.”

“Damn. I don’t want to be an adult then.”

“But, also… no homework.”

“Sick, dude.”

“And you get to have sex.”

“Awesome!”

“Most of you at least. Not you. Or you. And you will have sex, but it’s with an elderly and semi-lucid Casey Affleck.”

“Not sure how to feel about that.”

“No one is. Much of adulthood is learning how to feel about that.”

“Anything else?”

“Yeah, you know when you were a little kid, and you were super excited for Christmas, and you couldn’t wait for it to come? Well, when you’re an adult, all that anxiety and expectation gets moved to Election Day. And, while on Christmas, there’re always presents waiting under the tree, and family and eggnog and cookies and all that shit, and lo, what wondrous joy—on Election Day, half the time, the results will be so completely horrible that they will fill your soul with terror for the fate of the human race, and challenge your faith in the universe and your fellow man, and you will find yourself poisoning your brain with whatever chemical you can find in liquid form to somehow scrub the afterimage of that Lovecraftian horror called the American democratic process from the halls of your memory. And the other half of the time the results will be slightly less bad.”

“Whoa." They exchange looks. "How much sex though?"

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Yes, there are a hundred, and a thousand voices crying. But what does one do, when one cries this thing, and one cries another? Who knows how we shall fashion a land of peace where black outnumbers white so greatly? Some say that the earth has bounty enough for all, and that more for one does not mean less for another, that the advance of one does not mean the decline of another. They say that poor paid labour means a poor nation, and that better-paid labour means greater markets and greater scope for industry and manufacture. And others say that this is a danger, for better-paid labour will not only buy more but will also read more, think more, ask more, and will not be content to be forever voiceless and inferior.

Who knows how we shall fashion such a land? For we fear not only the loss of our possessions, but the loss of our superiority and the loss of our whiteness. Some say it is true that crime is bad, but would this not be worse? Is it not better to hold what we have, and to pay the price of it with fear? And others say, can such fear be endured? For is it not this fear that drives men to ponder these things at all?

Paton, Cry, the Beloved Country

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He was grave and silent, and then he said somberly, I have one great fear in my heart, that one day when they are turned to loving, they will find we are turned to hating.

Paton, Cry, the Beloved Country

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I always used to think I'd like to stay seventeen or eighteen if I could. But not anymore. I'm not a teenager anymore. I've got a sense of responsibility now. I'm not the same guy I was when we used to hang out together. I'm twenty now. And I have to pay the price to go on living.

Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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Fifteen years after Independence, in 1975, a group of Senators called the Church Committee took it upon themselves to look into the secret operations that had been brought to bear on the Congo. The world rocked with surprise. The Church Committee found notes from secret meetings of the National Security Council and President Eisenhower. In their locked room, these men had put their heads together and proclaimed Patrice Lumumba a danger to the safety of the world. The same Patrice Lumumba, mind you, who washed his face each morning from a dented tin bowl, relieved himself in a carefully chosen bush, and went out to seek the faces of his nation. Imagine if he could have heard those words-dangerous to the safety of the world!-from a roomful of white men who held in their manicured hands the disposition of armies and atomic bombs, the power to extinguish every life on earth. Would Lumumba have screamed like a cheetah? Or merely taken off his glasses, wiped them with his handkerchief, shaken his head, and smiled?

On a day late in August, 1960, a Mr. Allen Dulles, who was in charge of the CIA, sent a telegram to his Congolese station chief suggesting that he replace the Congolese government at his earliest convenience. The station chief, Mr. Lawrence Devlin, was instructed to take as bold an action as he could keep secret: a coup would be all right. There would be money forthcoming to pay soldiers for that purpose. But assassination might be less costly. A gang of men quick with guns and unfettered by conscience were at his disposal. Also, to cover all bases, a scientist named Dr. Gottlieb was hired to make a poison that would produce such a dreadful disease (the good doctor later testified in the hearings), if it didn't kill Lumumba outright it would leave him so disfigured that he couldn't possibly be a leader of men.

On the same August day, this is all I knew: the pain in my household seemed plenty large enough to fill the whole world. Ruth May was slipping away into her fever. And it was Rachel's seventeenth birthday. I was wrapping up green glass earrings in tissue paper, hoping to make some small peace with my eldest child, while I tried to sponge the fire out of my youngest . And President Eisenhower was right then sending his orders to take over the Congo. Imagine that. His household was the world, and he'd finished making up his mind about things. He'd given Lumumba a chance, he felt. The Congo had been independent for fifty-one days.

Kingsolver, The Poisonwood Bible

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In a rencontre of this kind, having left my antagonist for dead, I was wise enough to make my retreat into France; and a few days after my arrival at Paris, entering into conversation with some officers on the subject of politics, a dispute arose, in which I lost my temper, and spoke so irreverently of the Grand Monarque, that next morning I was sent to the Bastille, by virtue of a lettre de cachet. There I remained for some months, deprived of all intercourse with rational creatures; a circumstance for which I was not sorry, as I had the more time to project schemes of revenge against the tyrant who confined me, and the wretch who had betrayed my private conversation. But tired, at length, with these fruitless suggestions, I was fain to unbend the severity of my thoughts by a correspondence with some industrious spiders, who had hung my dungeon with their ingenious labours.

“I considered their work with such attention that I soon became an adept in the mystery of weaving, and furnished myself with as many useful observations and reflections on that art, as will compose a very curious treatise, which I intend to bequeath to the Royal Society, for the benefit of our woollen manufacture; and this with a view to perpetuate my own name, rather than befriend my country; for, thank Heaven! I am weaned from all attachments of that kind, and look upon myself as one very little obliged to any society whatsoever. Although I presided with absolute power over this long-legged community, and distributed punishments and rewards to each, according to his deserts, I grew impatient of my situation; and my natural disposition one day prevailing, like a fire which had long been smothered, I wreaked the fury of my indignation upon my innocent subjects, and in a twinkling destroyed the whole race. 

Smollett, The Adventures of Peregrine Pickle

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Ah hate cunts like that. Cunts like Begbie. Cunts that are intae basebaw-batting every fucker that's different; pakis, poofs, n what huv ye. Fuckin failures in a country ay failures. It's nae good blamin it oan the English fir colonising us. Ah don't hate the English. They're just wankers. We are colonised by wankers. We can't even pick a decent, vibrant, healthy culture to be colonised by. No. We're ruled by effete arseholes. What does that make us? The lowest of the fuckin low, tha's what, the scum of the earth. The most wretched, servile, miserable, pathetic trash that was ever shat intae creation. Ah don't hate the English. They just git oan wi the shite thuv goat. Ah hate the Scots.

Irvine Welsh, Trainspotting

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A contingent of howling simopaths swing from chandeliers, balconies and trees, shitting and pissing on passers-by. (A simopath--the technical name of this disorder escapes me--is a citizen convinced he is an ape or other simian. It is a disorder peculiar to the army, and discharge cures it.)

William S. Burroughs, Naked Lunch

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Politics, as a practice, whatever its professions, had always been the systematic organization of hatreds, and Massachusetts politics had been as harsh as the climate. The chief charm of New England was harshness of contrasts and extremes of sensibility --a cold that froze the blood, and a heat that boiled it --so that the pleasure of hating --one's self if no better victim offered --was not its rarest amusement; but the charm was a true and natural child of the soil, not a cultivated weed of the ancients.

The Education of Henry Adams

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And there we have it – the moment of supreme agony on the raft, taken up, transformed, justified by art, turned into a sprung and weighted image, then varnished, framed, glazed, hung in a famous art gallery to illuminate our human condition, fixed, final, always there. Is that what we have? Well, no. People die; rafts rot; and works of art are not exempt. The emotional structure of Géricault’s work, the oscillation between hope and despair, is reinforced by the pigment: the raft contains areas of bright illumination violently contrasted with patches of the deepest darkness. To make the shadow as black as possible, Géricault used quantities of bitumen to give him the shimmeringly gloomy black he sought. Bitumen, however, is chemically unstable, and from the moment Louis XVIII examined the work a slow, irreparable decay of the paint surface was inevitable ‘No sooner do we come into this world,’ said Flaubert, ‘than bits of us start to fall off.’ The masterpiece, once completed, does not stop: it continues in motion, downhill. Our leading expert on Géricault confirms that the painting is ‘now in part a ruin’. And no doubt if they examine the frame they will discover woodworm living there.

Barnes, Julian. A History of the World in 10 1/2 Chapters

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Back in the stateroom with the Swedes and the Japanese, Franklin remembered a TV series about psychology he’d once been asked to present. It had folded directly after the pilot, a loss nobody much regretted. One item in that show reported an experiment for measuring the point at which self-interest takes over from altruism. Put like this, it sounded almost respectable; but Franklin had been revolted by the actual test. The researchers had taken a female monkey who had recently given birth and put her in a special cage. The mother was still feeding and grooming her infant in a way presumably not too dissimilar from the maternal behaviour of the experimenters’ wives. Then they turned a switch and began heating up the metal floor of the monkey’s cage. At first she jumped around in discomfort, then squealed a lot, then took to standing on alternate legs, all the while holding her infant in her arms. The floor was made hotter, the monkey’s pain more evident. At a certain point the heat from the floor became unbearable, and she was faced with a choice, as the experimenters put it, between altruism and self-interest. She either had to suffer extreme pain and perhaps death in order to protect her offspring, or else place her infant on the floor and stand on it to keep herself from harm. In every case, sooner or later self-interest had triumphed over altruism.

Barnes, Julian. A History of the World in 10 1/2 Chapters

Bulgarity

I passed a graffito today that read "per fabor." I don't know if this is a misspelling on a par with "plaese," which is embarrassing, or "pleez," which is hip.

Anyway, on the same subject, at lunch, Francisco was talking to me about the Balkans. It took me five minutes to figure out he was referring to a Star Trek race and not to chunks of former-Yugoslavia.

Étude

I found this in an old email the other day--I wrote it for a friend a few years ago. It's not good, of course, but I'm still fond of it. And ***, too, for the record.


Étude, for ***
after T. S. Eliot’s The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock

Da questo passo vinto mi concedo
più che già mai da punto di suo tema
soprato fosse comico o tragedo:

ché, come sole in viso che più trema,
così lo rimembrar del dolce riso
la mente mia da me medesmo scema.*


I wonder at the star
You swallowed:
Blue as a bleached shell,
Potent as a strawberry,
Maybe lost in a hepatic well
Or fabled jugular gulley,
But probably placed centrally,
Embedded, I’ve supposed, in cardiac pith.
No myth,
This cellular sidereal coincidence,
For what else explains the wake of hope,
Obsequious, swirled,
The future tense
Frosting a world
That only knew how to be?

Such a legacy,
And you pass.

These days, the urge comes with guilt –
So despicably male and crass –
To mold you into a ball,
To clamp it close (and safe), light and all.
Then who’s to say
With one ear pressed
I shouldn’t hear within your breast
The religious thrum,
The rippling orbit, the secret hum –
Even triste et beau
The shred of a something
That wetly washed over the snow
When He made the first spring day?
(When two lovers shameless laughed and ran
And buttressed each other;
And time began.)

I wonder at the soft of your skin,
Waxy as molten glass,
Tender as a moth’s abdomen:
How a touch might blow you
Into a suspension of sand,
Or prod you into a sun,
Where the nebular dust pounds itself to become one.

(It is a wonder that a mere spherical form
Has afterthoughts so powerful
It keeps worlds warm.)

So I’ve thought at this – I’ve guessed at more:
I’ve watched the light seep up the floor.
(There is a lozenge-shaped hole in the door.)
Things appear in light, and light takes time.
The fact lingers behind.

Only in sleep can a mind meet a mind.

How fine the turf!  Translucent, semiotic.
How cordial comes the wind, abaft.
Chaotic.
How forever the landscapes in dreams…
Remember our running?
Starlight poured from your seams.


* Dante Alighieri, Paradiso.

Vanquished do I confess me by this passage 

More than by problem of his theme was ever 

O'ercome the comic or the tragic poet;


For as the sun the sight that trembles most, 

Even so the memory of that sweet smile 
My mind depriveth of its very self.